I'm terrible at this whole being a mother thingy. Isaac is in the hospital and I'm not even there with him. He's not alone though... my grandmother is staying there with him. I really want to be there with him, but I could feel myself getting slightly panicky at the thought of staying overnight...Probably because I have bad memories of the ward he is on and the fact that I hate hospitals and can't make myself talk to people there. I still have a chest infection and am coughing quite a lot. I don't think people can catch stuff off me anymore though... but I didn't want to risk spreading germs into a hospital. I need to get some sleep too... Meep. I shouldn't even be trying to justify not staying with him. I should have stayed there, end of.
He seems fine now. Why couldn't they just let him go home? My grandparents house is about a 3 minute drive from the hospital.
I'm rather pissed off. I'm pissed off because I'm not with him, because he has to stay there and because they spelled his first AND last name wrong on things.
Meep. I miss him.
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2 comments:
Oh hunni I'm so sorry he has to be on hospital! I hope he's doing alright.
But you listen here, you are not a bad mother!! You're such a wonderful mother already.
He's got your grandmother and to be honest it probably wouldn't help him to have you all panicky near him you know? It's okay, you're allowed to get scared. Don't be so hard on yourself.
Lots of mothers doubt themselves after even 20 years! So please don't feel bad for doubting yourself after just a few months.
You're doing so well and there's really no need to be so hard on yourself.
I'm so impressed at how you're doing so keep it up.
Take care of yourself sweetie. Contact me any time you need anything at all, ever. I'm always here.
xDFNx
You did everything right, you made sure he's not alone and he's going to be OK. He will be better off having you around him when you're well-rested and shizz, I bet he's looking forward to seeing you =]
You're an hoobacious mum, Ike is very lucky to have you. :13329:
Keep us pdated how things are going.
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